Everything's wrong about me..

well i don't know how to start writing this.i missed the scribbling day of my college today.
i wonder how people learn so easily to just give up things. just like that. why the hell a person wants to feel wanted. and why do some people just don't mind their own business. why they have to get into some one's life, make friends, advice them. try to change them and the person changes for the worst or changes just because of them and later on when hes suffocating because of the new me..then these people just leave knowing they have done an irreparable mistake.
why people have to get into other's life.just to screw it.when they know they should not break the golden rule "u cant change anyone!!"..why do they try to teach me things just to feel better themselves. gosh! why the hell I'm so vulnerable and agree to their opinions that they are right and my life is hell and they have every right to fix it up the way they want! everyone..everyone would like to know why and what I'm doing wrong and in fact tell me that whatever step I'm taking is wrong..ALWAYS WRONG!!! i was born wrong! my behaviour is the most rudest thing in the world and that i should have never been born because I'm so so wrong!! i am the idol of wrong behaviour and wrong thinking and complete ass..and the people who tell assure me they are doing the right thing my telling me this because they are my friends..so what happened now?? you couldn't tolerate that i kicked you out simply because i was done listening to you and your ways that u think are so very right.and guess what..even now when i don't talk to you guys you have your own unique ways to make me realise how bloody wrong i am..wow..that's so amazing..
and others tell me not to think about them..not to get disturbed by them..attend the crowd where they are everywhere and just not think about them..how the hell is that possible..how can i just ignore?? when they are all around..i cant put up masks...i cant put up a show when the inside of me is not enjoying at all..i dun wanna murder myself inside just to show to them that i don't care..id rather sit in my room than be there to face those faces and in fact put a face up for myself..